Hi, Everybody!
Today’s blog post is quite interesting… and that’s just putting it mildly!
Y’all ain’t gonna believe this crazy dream I had last night. Here’s what happened: I was walking along this long road in the middle of seemingly nowhere. The sky was filled with storm clouds, but there wasn’t so much as a drizzle, let alone a downpour. Anyway, as I continued walking along this path, I heard someone in the distance cry out for help. I raced over to the sound of the distressed voice, where I came across this deep, dark pit. When I looked down into the pit—y’all ain’t gonna believe this—it was none other than Ray Hernandez!
Yes, the same Ray Hernandez who broke my heart!
Anyway, I remember grabbing a rope from seemingly out of thin air and threw one end to him while I tied the other end to a large oak tree. When Ray climbed to the surface, I pulled him out of the pit, where he crawled towards the tree and collapsed. He thanked me for saving his life, and I simply nodded and said to him: “It’s okay—you’re forgiven.”
The strangest thing, though: When I woke up this morning, I clearly shouted out: “I forgive you, Ray!”
Since it was loud enough for Ruby to hear, she explained that the dream I had had was merely a sign that I had officially let go of my hurt and fears. I kinda understand what she meant by that, but I’m still a little lost as to the part about my “officially letting go,” especially considering that I had stated a week or so ago that I understood my worth as a young woman, and that I set the little boy free to do whatever the hell he wanted.
Well, I called Gramma Jewel this evening, and she broke it down for me, as only she could—Gramma Jewel basically said that although I had given myself time to heal, the anger that I still harbored would not allow me to forgive Ray. Only after I stopped being angry and understood my worth did I have that dream where I officially forgave Ray.
I tell y’all—Gramma Jewel be breakin’ it down for a sista!
Okay, it’s time for me to close up this here blog post, but I’ll be hollin’ at y’all tomorrow. I will say this, though: All things considered, I feel like I lost fifty pounds… emotionally, that is!
Smooches,
Natasha
