I know
that I’m only twenty years old, but in this year alone, I’ve learned that sometimes
you can lose interest in something that you love, especially when you’ve taken
a rather lengthy hiatus. However, if you still have the passion that lies
within you, then you will find some kinda way to rekindle that fire and get
back up on that horse. In my case, I haven’t written a blog post in so long
that I’ve almost forgotten how to write one… hahaha! However, I love telling
you all about my adventures as a college student, and I also love posting blog
updates.
With that
said, let’s get on down with today’s blog post.
I just
realized that it has officially been well over a year that my heart was broken
by someone who claimed that they really loved me. This person was a fellow high
school graduate, and he swore up and down that he wanted to be with me; he said
that there was no one else in the world who could compare to me. Well, that all
changed when, on December 20, 2013, he admitted that he had fallen in love with
another woman. Now, I will give this fella credit—at least he didn’t lie about
it. He’s was very honest with me, and while it really hurt me, in hindsight I
do appreciate that he thought enough of me to tell me the ugly ass truth.
I was just
sitting up here reading my blog post entitled “How Can I Ease The Pain?” Yes,
that title was inspired by a song from one Lisa Fischer… and incidentally, my
Uncle Ronnie loved him some Lisa Fischer, but that’s another story for another
day. In any event, I remember when I asked the question of “why.” I questioned why
I felt so sad, so disappointed, so heartbroken. I remember even feeling jealous
of my mom and dad, my aunts and uncles, and even my Gramma Jewel (she and Mr.
Hawkins have been dating for almost two years now). But I remember a
conversation that my dad had with me. I still remember his soft, comforting
words:
“Honey
Bee, I want you to know that there is a guy out there looking for a sweetheart
like you, but until he shows up, I’m keeping the keys to your heart.”
Here it
is, just a little over a year since that ugly incident, and I tell y’all: I
FEEL FREAKIN’ FANTASTIC!!!
I can actually sit back and laugh on that incident
now. Granted, I still wish that it never happened, but that’s just my human
side cutting up. Like my dad said, the right man will come along when the time
is right. Ray Hernandez was just a thing of the past, and this is his loss. And
my Auntie Cherri said it best: “The time will come when that fella will look
back and realize that he made the biggest mistake of his life by ditching a
princess for a sleazy slimy slut!”
Yeah, my
Auntie Cherri still don’t mince no words… hahaha!
But anyway,
it’s so comforting to know that I am a young woman who knows my worth. I am
smart, I am sexy, and I am spontaneous. There’s a man out there who is waiting for
me, just so he can get down on one knee and ask me to be his wife and the
mother of our children. Yes, I do believe that will happen someday, but I ain’t
gonna settle for no trash (I am my Auntie Cherri’s niece, don’tcha know)!
Until
tomorrow, y’all take care and be good.
Hugs &
Kisses,
Natasha
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