Assessing the Situation Carefully...

Hi, Everybody!

So, despite the shock of my life on yesterday afternoon, I want y’all to know that I’m in a lot better mood today. I managed to sleep like a baby last night—shoot, I slept so good last night that when I woke up, I felt like a brand-new gal! And on top of that, I just had a big home-cooked breakfast, and now I’m sitting here reading my emails.

And I’ll be damned if I didn’t receive an email from that same jackass who I encountered yesterday afternoon! Apparently, he sent me an email around eight o’clock last night, with the subject title: “Hi, Natasha.”

At first, I started not to read it, but my curiosity really got the best of me. Y’all ain’t gonna believe what this jerk wrote to me. Just listen to this shit right here:

Hi, Natasha:

Judging by the way you turned and walked away from me in the mall yesterday, it’s obvious that you’re still a little angry with me. I want you to know that I understand why you’re still angry, and I don’t blame you at all for that; after all, I did cheat on you.

Natasha, I am really, truly sorry for breaking your heart, and I know that I made matters a lot worse when I broke this disgusting news to you right before Christmas 2013—I guess I just wasn’t thinking clearly. But hey, at least I let you know straight up, as opposed to leaving you guessing. I gotta get some credit for that.

In any event, I really would like to change what happened, but the past is the past, and I cannot jump into a time machine and change anything—I can only live for the present. I also know that my future will not go right until I apologize to you. With that said, I sincerely apologize. If you don’t want to speak to me anymore, I truly understand. All I ask is that you forgive me.

--Ray

 

Okay, first of all: I made it known that I do forgive him. At the same time, I’m still feeling some kinda way about this whole situation. The more I think about it, the more pissed off I get. To tell y’all the truth, this fool has some kinda nerve to send me this bullshit email! I mean, let’s face it, he obviously didn’t care for my feelings at all when he was cheating on me. Yeah, sure—I was at Rust and I had no knowledge of it, but he made a promise to me when we were going steady, and I held him to that promise. And what really pisses me off is the fact that he actually admitted that he was cheating on me. I still remember those stinging words: “Natasha, you’re a good girl, and it hurts me to tell you that this happened—I mean, you were away in Mississippi, and I really did try to be faithful to you. I really had no intentions of hurting you—this just happened.”

Come on, now, y’all—I admit that I’m young and naïve, but I’m not stupid! And besides, his ass didn’t try hard enough!

And as far as his apology goes… well, it’s like my Gramma Jewel says: There’s a dead cat on the line somewhere. I’m serious, y’all—why is he so apologetic all of a sudden? What could’ve happened between then and now, to where he’s decided to contact me?

Well, the bottom line is this: Even though it took me a while to do so, I did forgive the rat bastard and I’ve since moved on with my life.

I’ve got some more thinking to do here. Please continue to pray for me, y’all.